When I left for the Toronto Yoga Conference last Wednesday, these tulips were about a quarter open. They were tall and strong and vibrant. They looked like what we expect a tulip to look like. When I came home on Sunday, they looked VERY different – they had opened to their full capacity. The colour was still vibrant but they had gained a softness and an expansiveness.
I feel the same way after spending 4 full days immersed in the world of yoga philosophy, breath, meditation, and asana. For awhile now there has been a glimmer of something more, a part of myself waiting to be recognized. Along with that glimmer has been a little bit of fear; fear of the unknown and unknowing. Over the course of those 4 days that glimmer has become a spark.
It’s impossible for me to put my finger on what exactly has changed or what this new discovery is and really the specifics don’t matter but I can definitely say that my consciousness has been expanded. My body can be soft yet tall and strong and vibrant. Slowly opening up to my full capacity is a beautiful experience.
If I had stayed home, I probably would have tossed the tulips after they opened a little bit more and began to droop. Then I would have replaced them with new, fresh tulips and started the whole cycle again. What if instead of tossing the tulip because it is changing its preconceived shape and replacing it with one that is fresh and new, we just leave it be and see what it can become?
It was a tad scary and overwhelming to leave my familiar yoga world and travel across the country to study with new things with teachers that I didn’t really know anything about. But if I had stayed home, I would have missed what turned out to be an amazing adventure.
By moving beyond our preconceived ideas of how things should be or what is familiar and opening ourselves up to new experiences, we can expand our hearts, our bodies, our consciousness.